Saturday, August 23, 2008

Realization

I mean, seriously. Why is that we as female species tend to hold on to the things that hurt us the most? I mean think about it. Someone hurts us and we go on and on about it without realizing that we are only making the pain immortal. We tell girlfriends and anyone else who is willing to listen. But why? Don't get me wrong... i fully believe in talking about things because that is one way in which we heal but why carry on and on and on. Just like my friends, XXXX. But how about it, do we female species would also tend to hold on to the things or fact that we hurt someone else? Hmn... Interesting.

I have recently picked up one of my old hobby. Going away. going away from from whatever frown stuff. I tends to ran away whenever I felt anger, I walk away whenever I feel tired and disappointed. Going away from people that do not recognize my soul and thoughts. Although I like going away; even though I love to make it as an escape excuses. But God know, this walking away is not an easy thing because it involves so much but is all worth it at the end of the day. I went away, I saw things, I learned things and I laugh again even though I'm still suffering from my non-ordinary life. Going away does matter to me. My vocabulary has written down a new word, Realization. I walk, I grow, I think, I know.

What matter the most? Lately I been having a same thought. I don't see myself could live for 80 years but let's say. One day when I'm 70 years old chilling with my grand child, they ask me, '' Nanny Nanny, what have you done in your life that make you proud the most? Have you done anything that make you regret? " ...... I want my answer would be, I have such a great life, no regret yet meaningful. Life is short. Study hard, play hard; work hard, enjoy hard. Listen to your heart, do exactly what it tell you too, then life a wonderful life.



3 comments:

  1. Hey hey

    Well, girls aren't the only gender that hold on to things that hurt them. Sometimes guys hold on too... just because of hope. But it's not really worth it....

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  2. Man, you have no idea how much holding on to things that hurt me I have done myself. It really is a bad thing to do and we all KNOW this, however it does not make stopping yourself from doing it any easier...

    Dont worry when your 80 I am sure you will have an awesome story with no regrets :) Its so easy to focus on the negative...but remember the positive! Its just your personality to move away and take a break or what have you, that does not make you a bad person. At least you reffered to your running away as a hobby :) Not a habbit.

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