Tuesday, January 19, 2010

Homesick

For a while now I've been wondering if this misery I've been feeling 24/7 for the past few days was normal homesickness that most other people feel, or was it just me?

I'm far away from home. Just like everyone else here, I try to keep myself busy (I tried), but everytime when I'm alone, or just viewing the new photos uploaded by my friends and family back home are the worst.

I think I've feeling down more these past few days than I have in the last five years. I miss my family a lot too. Every time my mum and I talk either online or on the phone, I always ignore my own feelings and hell yeah, I am so good at it. But afterwards, wishing to be back at home with her again. And when I recall my good times in high school with my girls, I'm feeling blue.

Life sucks, huh? I count down the days to return home, but there is something that keep holding me back and it's so darn far away. The feeling stinks. I really hope to be able to get over it soon.

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  1. My husband and I just moved from Phoenix, AZ to Owings Mills, MD 3 weeks ago due to his job (military). I am still kind of homesick... the cold has always bugged me regadless. The snow is pretty, but nasty when it starts to melt. Hopefully, I will find a nice place to ride when it warm up!

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  2. I'm now in Rhode Island and very lonely .
    I dun wanna stay here anymore I'm thinking to go back to Sg and study at NTU. I guess it's the best way for me . I can't stand it anymore!!!

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  3. The homesickness thing isnt nice at all. And it must be so much harder with it only being you and your daughter as you dont really have anyone to talk to about it.

    Just remember that's what we're all here for and we've all gone/going through it as well.

    Getting a social circle of friends will take time and it will be harder for you with your shift work but it will happen. Are there any after school clubs thats parents run at your daughters school that you could maybe become involved in, even if it is just a small part with your work commitments? This might help you make a few more friends who may even be able to help with looking after your daughter when you are at work?

    I wish I could make it all better for you. Just remember these waves of homesickness and feeling blue will come and go and just focus on the good things in your life. This is a wonderful new life you are embarking on with your daughter. This is something amazing that just the two of you are going through and can share together!

    I hope you pick up soon.

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