Another day another week. I was supposed to hang out with my friend today. I was kinda looking forward to it. It would've been my first time going out since Monday. I know that's bad but I just cant bring myself to go outside. It sucks. You know what's weird? That I have tons of friends and yet, Why I'm still here, in my room with nothing to do and talk to nobody. But then, even if I did go out, it'd be the same. I walk around, glancing at the views and places that tourists would go insane for and, nothing. I'm still alone and lonely in one of the best cities in the world.
Sometimes, I can't help but be sad and angry at myself, at why I can't make myself go out. I used to think that I deserved this constant loneliness but, now I realize that nobody deserves this. I wouldn't wish this on my worst enemy. I guess I just have to suck it up. Is not the first time I'm feeling like this, it just happens. Easier said than done on nights like these though. I'm sorta glad I can use this as my refuge though. Makes me feel better, even if it's just for a few seconds...I'll be better tomorrow, trust me, I'm sure.